The following poem first appeared in The Aleph Review, Vol. 6 (2022). Selected from our archives for the website by digital guest editor Taha Kehar.
when i say dilli, i mean the ruins
of civilisations built, broken, besieged
in its qillas, and how the dead hold
your hands in their scrawny ones
on a chilled metro because you never really
let go of the things you love with
a child’s passion, do you.
when i say dilli, i mean the narrow ends
of two homes that kiss and touch
between which zauq still roams on december nights
because his poems may be the mecca
to worship for some majnun
who abandoned ghalib for the underdog –
kaun jaaye par dilli ki galiyaan chhod kar,
he bows down in prayer. it’s all here.
when i say dilli, i mean the fierce anger
of its people and its seasons, only ever
still enough on a may evening to grudgingly
behold the majesty of an obscure park
outside the india gate in cp,
ashing the rage with a lipstick mark
on a shared cigarette.
when i say dilli, i mean the love
of your life after 8 years on a momo stall
as you spill this chutney over the mayonnaise
(which doesn’t belong there anyway) –
their eyes still pool in, your chuckle an instinct
as they gorge it down. you remember
dusty editions of colonial history,
the sighs of almosts for pritam and ludhianvi.
dilli is a measured longing, learned,
pretentious, making you roll your eyes in bed,
tired and tiring, too much to take in,
relentless in a fight. when i say dilli,
i mean the knowing
of never having to say it in words –
can i take a picture of you,
for everything that touches you by
after dilli, i mean to say it’s only goodbye
intimate enough to feel like a distant memory.
Anushree Joshi is a student of English literature at Lady Shri Ram College in New Delhi and is particularly interested in studying and analysing the intersections between culture, cinema and literature, focusing upon the Indian subcontinent. She has two years of journalistic experience, working at India’s largest student-run newspaper, DU Beat, where she is the print editor. She has worked on academic criticism and research pertaining to a feminist reading of Indian Partition texts, popular culture, romantic poetry and cinema studies. Her work has been published in Muse India, South Asian Popular Culture, Kitaab, The Literary Herald, Wire Journal, Terribly Tiny Tales, Film Companion, Jabberwock, LSR and Amazon Audible.
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